So far away, so distant. 

As i look back and recover my memories and my lost self, it's blurry.

As if there is an unreachable distance.

What is lost is lost, it shall remain blurry as that is what a memory shold be like. 

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A blured memory would potray that the lost self is soon to be forgoten. the distant shold extend further. Then, I would be able or maybe find a new and understandable self.